Beauty Unplugged: Struggle to be the Ideal Muslimah

Wow, okay so its been a crazy day!!  So this morning I get up and am so tired, I made tahajjad and did my reading, slept for an hour, got back up for fajr and then went back to sleep.  I was soooo wasted!!  Cause I was up late last night.  So....I have a large amount of things left to do this evening.  My children and I had school until late this afternoon, instead of early to early afternoon, which is fine, accept it puts dinner time back and that means cleanup time and SLEEP TIME.  LOL Why do I sound so obsessed with sleep. LOL I lack time management skills.  So.......I was making isha last night and while I was making my dua, I saw a rainbow.  Which is great, but the best part is that I studied it whilst I was dhikring thinking, "Am I really seeing this?"  lets think, its night time.  I have one light on, in the living room, where I am, and the rest of the house, save the hallway, is dark.  I have on a dark red and black veil and a cream colored overgarment.  The rainbow i

Okay, so I know I'm just jumping in here but.  I'm all about self discovery and I'm deeply into doing that right now.  What is life but an opportunity to better yourself for your maker.  My Allah is so profoundly Merciful and Kind, there isn't anything I wouldn't do for Him.  Bettering myself is the least I can do, even though it is the hardest and most energy and time consuming thing possible. I have a councillor, till I get her permission she will remain known only as my councillor.  She is a Mercy from my Allah, Sukri Alhamdulillah. Well, for the past week I have fighting just to get in the basic five salats a day.  I don't know what the problem was, but I was definitely fighting.  I was missing Zhur and Asr for like two days in a row, I was sleeping completely through tahajjad and Fajr.  It was crazy! I felt like I was drowning in a sleepiness that would not be appeased.  I made intense dua.  I asked my Allah for safety, for His protection against whatever