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5 years later! WOW!

Hello everyone, Wow! It has been five years since I last posted. So much has changed.  With my life, with my outlook on life, just....with everything.  I'll start with the most major changes.  I am no longer married.  I no longer home school my children.  I have a new baby, who is now four years old.  I don't work with AMLC anymore.  My oldest daughter moved away.  Is well into college, on her way to a pre-law degree.  Proud to death.
Some few things have remained the same.  The boys still play football. My middle daughter does cheer and soccer.  Yes, that's her personality. lol  I'm still trying to balance,  my house, work, school, and my children's schedules, and my baby. in a way that would be pleasing to my Rabb.  My first real step for that is building our command center.  It lists everyone's schedules, as well as appointments, and meal planner list.  I'm currently bouncing between staying with a weekly planner, or going with a monthly.  My might do both.
Being single brings its own struggles.  But this isn't the post for that information. LOL Later with that one.
I actually am just starting school again.  I haven't been to school since 2015, so I'm still working on that same degree.  My life kind of took a halt, and is just getting moving again honestly.  Hit a few speed bumps on the road. But still fighting the best of battles, to discover, and better myself. As hard as its been, My Allah(Lord) has been with me every single step of the way.  My children and I have not gone hungry, we have been in some sticky situations, but we are relieved at every turn, by His Mercy.  So I can't really complain.  I've reinvented myself as #workinglikeamom.  That's what I do, everyday, be it at home, or at work, or at play.  I #WorklikeaMOM every single day.
I have not yet been successful in completing my a household schedule for our place.  But I've tried a few.  Consistency is still the bane of my existence.  I really need to get it together though.  My health is taking a turn for the not great.  So I'm making an effort to be healthier, to run a healthy household.  I have an exersize regiment for myself since all the children but my baby are in physical activities.  I'm trying to get into a tumbling for toddlers class, but I first need a car.  Of which I currently do not have. 
I still absolutely love beautiful things, although, I find it harder to see the beauty in everything.  I believe it is a skill that must be used in order to keep it honed, and is sharpened by use.  It will come back, I have not completely lost it, just, my vision is a little more jaded than it was.  And I believe that with time that tint will fade, or I will find beauty even in the shaded vision. 
I will be doing this more often, I feel a glimmer of myself in the typing, in the self-examination.  I will definitely have to keep it up.

Somewhere between love and loss
there is a field of wonder.
A wide plain of beauty and self discovery.

This post is short. It will get longer as I write about more specific topics.  I am starting a business as well, so I will be posting a link to my website blog soon.  
Until then, SMILE, Allah loves you!



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